I tend to go all or nothing when I tackle a new health or self-care plan, and the result is that I usually never finish what I begin. I recently did that with “The Artist’s Way”, and I frequently do it with the gym, my diet, my fitbit. I know that baby steps are the… Continue reading gently, gently, gently…
Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final. ~ Rainier Maria Rilke Just a quick little update. I realized my last post sound very down… but it’s amazing how quickly things change. They change daily, hourly. I had let weeks go by between posts, so it’s not always… Continue reading Learning to Stay
I guess I should be expecting this by now, this tender heart around my monthly ‘birthdays’, and don’t I say that each month? Heavy, heavy heart this week, and skin as thin as tissue. It literally feels as though something is sitting on my chest. I don’t know if it’s the news these days or… Continue reading Six Months
I learned from the Buddhist teachings that the best conditions to practice Dharma and meditation are when life is just kinda ok. Meditation and the ability to absorb the teachings come with greater ease if we aren’t hungry, wondering where we are going to sleep, and no major loss or drama happening in our relationships.… Continue reading Non-Negotiables
I’ve taken the 5 main Buddhist precepts countless times. They are: no killing, no stealing, no harmful speech, no sexual misconduct, and the fifth and most widely disregarded: no intoxicants. That final one, oh I know so many Buddhists who don’t follow it. It’s taught that the reason for intoxicants can make mindfulness difficult, meditation challenging, and… Continue reading The Monk and the Village Girl
I hit 3 months of no alcohol this week, and I’m noticing the pattern of raw, tender, sensitivity that comes with each 30 day marker. I don’t know how long it will be this way, but I will start preparing for and accepting it. This time it wasn’t about questioning my decision, it was just… Continue reading My answer is yes.
One thing I really love about and what drew me to AA are the steps. I’ve done them before through Alanon and see them as a structure upon which to rebuild a life. For me they’re about looking closely at myself, letting go of control over that which I have no control , and developing a relationship and… Continue reading stoking the flame within